Seriously considering watching Alias even though it isn’t my normal genre to watch because Michael Vartan, that’s why.
Anybody recommend it?
I went and had my flu shot two days after my cimzia shot. Turns out that having two needles which suppress your immunity in such a short time leads to fallout, in this case a head cold. Bleh.
I’m feeling rather horrible. I just feel like I need to vent because I don’t want to overburden the two people I do talk to about my issues.
I’ve had bad rheumatoid arthritis for a very long time, but it has been debilitating for at least the last year. In that time I have been put on three pills and a needle for it which I still take. While most patients respond quickly to the needle with lowered inflammation levels, my levels continue to be sky high. As a result I can only walk for about 3 minutes before my legs begin to seize up, and I struggle to walk 15 minutes to the store and back again.
I’ve come to the realisation that the way I lost 60kgs all those years ago (which I gained back) was through constant exercise. But I was physically a different person then, with less health problems than now. How am I supposed to get enough exercise when my body seizes up, stiffens and aches after a couple of minutes? This week it has been raining every day and my joints are so bad that I can’t bring myself to go out even for a small walk because I know it won’t end well.
So basically this is what is happening. I’m sad because I’m really, really fat. I have the hope of losing weight through exercise. Depressed that my arthritis is not getting better which leads to lack of exercise, pain and remaining heavy. Which leads to more sadness.
I just don’t know what to do anymore.